Woooooo. I wanna blog but I can't really think of much to say. XB I leave so soon, eep!! I'm gonna miss everyone. T_T But Becky called me today. She wwent to the concert band camp this past week. She says it'll be lots of fun. Wait, I think I said that in my last post. OH well! *is dumb* hmmmm...

*runs around cackling* woo, I haven't had any caffeine today, I swear! *shoves Coke cans out of sight* ^____^ I have to clean my room tongiht. Blarg! And try on all these stupid shorts. I hate shorts. Moo. >_< Ross is being annoying, like usual. *stabs her brother* He built this evil robot thing out of those Lego Mindstorm stuff. It makes noises that scare me. My brother is now sayin g'of so I be off!

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[mood = depressed & pissed]

why the fuck do I even care. Why?! I get no response when I try to help out or liven things up. It's just all weird now. I want to say something, but I care to much. I can't hurt him. I just... god, I can't, and that makes me even more pissed. I want it to be like last summer. So much fun. But he's never there anymore. But i don't want to say anything. He's got a life. Maybe I should get one too. But how. I... I've got no one. People... they just ignore me. I've tried to be myself this year. And, it doesn't work. I don't fit. It's not... working. I don't know what to do. My parents wonder why I'm online al the time. WHy? Because this is where the people are who accept me. I can completely be myself.

I talked to my mom about it once. How I felt like I have no friends. She told me that my preschool teacher had said this about me. That I'd be a gal with a couple close friends but other than that, wouldn't get really cose to people. How could she tell that about me when I was in PRESCHOOL?! What's wrong with me, god, what the fuck is wrong with me. I almost want school back. There I could be with people. Now that summer's here I've gotten one phonecall. And that was because I called her first. I do nothing. Just sit and listen to music and talk online. My parents hate it. They think I'm a lazy good for nothing bitch. I don't care anymore. Just... gah, I don't even know what to write. No one reads this shit anyway.

[mood = shifty]

w00t! New layout. I know it's soon but there was just SOMETHING about the other one that was driving me nuts. Bad color combos, me thinks. Oh well, I like this one MUCH bettah. I leave for jazz camp on Sunday! Excited excited excited!! But I'm scared too. Oy, I'm gonna be so much worse than the other bass players. >_< Eep!

I was gonna go see a movie today. Called at least 5 friends. NONE of them could make it. Damn people with their lives and everything. *fumes* What really sorta erks me tho is that i realized, in the summer, I'M always calling THEM. I don't think I've had a friend call me and ask me to do something with them in at least a year or so. I'm pathetic. *sighs dejectedly* Oh well. I had a lot of stuff to talk about, but I don't much feel like writing. So Here's a couple sketches and craploads of photographs that I recently found. Hold your mouse over 'em to see my comments. XD *bounces off*

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[mood = hyper & bouncy]

Okay! Booya! I be hosted! ROWN I LUV J00!! XD XD *dances* i feel so special! hehe. Ooooo it's a Sunday and I'm not dreading tomorrow! It's officially summer, by jove.

Yesterday i got really bored because no one was online and my dadio made me get off. So I biked up to Corley's house and she was there! w00t! We biked down to Nelson's and got outrselves some HUGE cups of ice cream. I got chocolate chip cookie dough and mint chocolate chip, and she got strawberry and elephant tracks. Yuuuuummmmm... we sat on the grass and talked for a good hour and a half. Was excellent. Then we biked back up to my house. Man, we're soooo out of shape. XD We were like dead after a couple hills. I must get in shape this summer. *adds to her goals of summer* At my house I showed her my Beatle bass and she mad me improvise for her on my clarinet. XD The insanity. She says I sound good. She doesn't know jazz. *grins stupidly*

Ross went over to Kent's house AGAIN. I swear, the kid thinks he lives there. Oh well. As long as they are over there and not over here, I'm fine with it. Anything to get my bro out of my face for the day. He's going to be there all day and then sleep over. But her gets to go to the mall of america. But he's going to buy me Sims vacation. ^_____^ So all in all, this is a good thing. I just started playin the boy's Escape from Monkey Island game. Oh what joy! *laughs* That game is hilariously funny. and it's got MONKEYS of course! What else could you ask for. Nothing. Nothing, I tell you! *bounces* i'm really hyper right now and I haven't had any caffeine. Hm, maybe it's a delayed reaction to yesterday's bottle of pepsi.

Okay, I'm going to go work on my clique more that I started and then rejected. Weeee... maybe I should update MZ too? We shall see...

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Queen of Naboo. You could have a split personality - simply to hide who you really are. You are extremely polite and gentle. However, if needs be, you will take action and can be a very good leader. You have the power to make people believe in you - use this power. The one you love could also end up being the one you hate.



Booya. Just, booya. :}

[mood = relaxed, bored, lazy]

nothing to doooooooo. :} School is OUT! *cheers* Yesterday was finally my last day. AND I pulled my grade up to and A- in Spanish! I got a 42/40 on my final too. I dun good for once! w00t!! *rubs her fac* i had to get and go BACk to school this morning though. Since I'm a "librarian" for band I had to go help sort music and clean out band lockers. yay. -_-;; Oh well it was only till about 12:30 and i got donuts and Brine's. Mmmmmmm yesh. Good food.

*stretches* i go to Heather's B-day party tomorrow evening. We're camping out outside (or inside depending on the weather) over night. Gonna be much fuuuuuuun. ^_____^ But for now I'm in a "meh" sorta mood. So oogle my latest 4 hour oekaki! XD

[mood = bit tired, restless]

Okay. Had a rather restless night. Ryan's was talking to me and he's had it rought lately. I wanted to help him, but he told me he couldn't really share it. I'm not hurt or anything, I understand he obviosly won't share everything with me, but it's just sorta confusing. Normally we're really open and the things that are really bugging him he likes to get off his chest. Oh well. He said he might be able to tell me soon. I hope so. I think I know what it might be, but for his and my own confidentiality, I won't say for the moment. I just want to help him, and I hope he understands that I won't mind no matter what her talks about. So I was up rather late worrying about him. *sighs a bit*

I had the first half of my math final today. Oh good god. >_< I couldn't even do the first question. I sit there, thinking, log?! What the HELL is a log?! hehe, I vague;y remember but jesus 0_o. I could do some at least. But I'm not looking forward to tomorrow's. The good thing is, it can't hurt you grade... unless you're the person with the lowest score. In which case, your grade goes down TWO letter grades. EEP! I am SO going to be that person, I bet. I'd cry and crack up at the same time. I barely have an A- in that class and I must keep it. *crosses her fingers* I have a History test on the Middle Ages tomorrow and a Biology final along with that. Spanish final ins't until Wednesday. And then I'm FREE!!

Until I get a job that is. But oh well. I hope I can get the job at the local bookstore. I have to go there this weekend and see if they're hiring.please please. I refuse to work at a damn restaurant. That job would just suck.

I GOT MY BEATLE BASS TODAY! *cheers and dances* It's sooooo awesome!! *hugs it* I'm gonna look SO cool at the gig Wednesday night, oh yeeeeeeeeah. XD I'm learnin' the basslines for Trouble by Coldplay. I lurve that song. trish is getting really good at the piano part to. The guitar and drums should be easy for Nina/Amanda and John. I hope we can actually get it together this summer and jam.

I go to Jazz camp in 2 weeks. I'm really excited but nervous too. Everyone there's going to be so good and have played their instruments for so long and then there will be stupid li'l me, still learning. BUT. I'll have a kickass bass. Muhahahahaha! Okay, moo, I've got nothin else to say.

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Ugh, I've got to go play for graduation in band tonight. Rooooooar. We'll have to play Pomp and Circumstance for an un-godly length of time i'm sure. But at least Mr. Feller's taking us out for ice cream at Nelson's afterwords. I have to see if John-Bob can give me a ride home. He better. *shakes a fist*

On Wednesday, our jazz combo actually has a "gig". We get 50 bucks for playing for 25-30 minutes. Not bad, eh? But Nils is being really retarded and hasn't given us a call. We were supposed to rehearse today, but oy. >_< In fact, I'm going over to Trisha's now so she and i can jam anyways. I'm off!

[mood = slightly tired, slightly cynical and hyper 0_o ]

Wellllll, NEW LAYOUT! *cheers* hehe, Even though I still have 3 more days of school, I wanted to have a new summer celebration layout. Woo-hoo! Sorta bold colors, eh? But I love the banner. *grins* yay prettiness! ^_____^

I've only got finals to survive now. Done with projects and last unit tests. *crosses her fingers* I can do this, I can do this. I auditioned for jazz yesterday. Was soooo stressed out about it, it was amazin. I auditioned with my clarinet in the morning. That actually went fairly well and my improvising wasn't bad for the first time I've done it in front of someone. But then came the bass guitar audition. Oy. i remind you that I've played clarinet since 5th grade. That's 6 years. Bass? yeah, since last SUMMER. Not even a year. In other words, I'm a bit worse at bass than I am at clarinet. So i go in there, flub my way through the prepared stuff. Then, good god, he makes me sightread. I looked at the stuff and tried to figure it out and then just sorta cracked. I HATE it when i do this. I broke down crying because I could barely play any of it and I need to be in Jazz so bad next year. But luckily, the band director's realy nice and was understanding. He knows me and loves me too, so he knows what I'm capable of. I can play, but it just takes me a long time to get it right, I'll know the rythmes and notes but my brain and fingers don't connect with that thing yet. So he actually let me skip the sight reading and go on to walking basslines, just putting a "takes time" comment in the sight reading box. So I continued and I didn't do so bad with the basslines. Thank GOD Feller wasn't out ready in the hall for his audition after mine or he would have heard me and I think I would have died on the spot. Oy. I don't cry much. It's so incredibly embarrassing. >_< Oh well.

We got the results today. I'm in Jazz II on Bass guitar. ^________^ but he said he was going to try to find another bass player so i can play some lead tenor sax parts on my clarinet instead. XD *dances* i was disappointed at first because all my friends who were in jazz with me this year are in Jazz I, I'm sure. But I talked to my best bud, Trish, tonight on the phone and she was all excited and happy for me and told me that i rawked and would be able to go to Chicago with the Jazz band next year. She has no idea, but that made me feel SO much better. So now I'm happy.

So I vill leave it at that for tonight! Will blog much more once I get crap school overwith. in the meantime, check out the comic I finished recently. Wheeee, the insanity. XD

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