*highly amused*

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Okay, I guess I was in even more of a cynical mood last night then usual, but mt entry got short because the dad came hope and I didn't get to make my point. The whole mention of Trish and my conversation was just an example, I'm not sour at her or anything. heh, but yeah.

Today was as boring as hell. Absolutely nothing happened, even my clarinet lesson was canceled. I'm worried about people. Everyone's minds and hearts are going fzzt and cracking. Even mine. Last third of the school year, they're piling it on. I don't know why they wait until now. Retarded teachers. Oh well. *random* hey, Schindler's List music is sad. *shakes a fist* Trish and Whit have sucked me in.

We made an awesome movie yesterday, I was proud to be in it. We did a spoof off of those prescription drug commercials that never tell you what it's for and we made up really out there side-effects. Like Excruciating Pain, Death, Sever Birth Defects, Retardation, Multiple Personalities, Parasitic Infection (poor trish had to half swallow a spaghetti noodle and pull it back out of her throat), Sudden Blurting, and Anal Beads. We acted 'em all out. Haha! Oh it was too hilarious. I'd decribe it all, but i just did to my brother and I can't do it correctly without using voices and/or faces. And it was so beautiful outside that for one of the "after" scenes, me and Trish leapt and ran across Whit's yard. Wee! I have nothing more to saaay nananana! I want to draw! Muhaha, but I have zerp time anymore! Yay, Megan! luckily, once I go to art school, I will have lots of time! So much, I'll probably get sick of it. *grins*

Speaking of which, I feel so behind. I have to take the ACT's and SAT's this spring. Have I started stufying for them? No. Neither has anyone else, except for my two best friends. So I feel really lame. And they've got colleges they want to go to. I'm like "On the oceaaaaan!" and that's all I know. I gotta keep reminding myself that at least i know WHAT I want to do, and that's more than lots of people. And stop comparing my progress to the two geniuses. Oy.

Heh, was going to finish that survey, but I'm not in the mood. Just got home from Whit's. Had All-State auditions this morning. They went alright, Whit said te judge was pretty impressed with his. Hehehe, I love that boy, he's got a bit of an ego, but it just goes with the personality. And ego's alright. Most of the time better than fucking low self-esteem. I wish people could get over things. Just... gah, just accept that people like them and that th world really doesn't hate them and that things will probably be okay in the end. No need to try and prove yourself, no need to apologize for being fucking YOU. I feel bad, but then again, it drives me absolutely crazy. I want to smack them. There doesn't seem to be any other way to get it into their fucking heads. It makes me angry, but then I smack myself and tell myself that it's probably not their fault and half the time tey can't help it. But then, I think, they should get help. And if help is horrible, well do it anyway. You gotta get through the torture to get to the happiness. If going through something I loathed and feared, was the only way I could be comfortable for the rest of my life, I'd do it. And I mean that. I don't back down with those things. And other people just have to learn. They have to toughen up.

You know what else I've realised? Every teen has anst. Every teen thinks their angst is so much worse than all the others. They all think no one understands what they're feeling or going through. Back at Chicago, when Trish told me that I didn't understand, that she couldn't explain, I wanted to scream "Fuck you! I do to! You think I don't know what it's like to be in love?!" Because I do. And I know what a broken heart feels like. And I know how much being away from them hurts, yeah, I know that one for sure. Being away from them like hours away from them every day for 5 months is absolute torture. Fuck, g2g

Things are good. Or.... well, yeah, compared to recently, things are good. Have more performances tomorrow - All-State Auditions. Heh, I'm going to fuck it up because I've hardly practiced but i didn't have time so I don't give a crap. But I'm healthy. I started third tri. It's going to be hell, I know this for sure, but for now, I'm alright. Spring Break in a week. Good god. Whit's going to be gone for it though. *sadness* Oh well. Trish and I are good again. Things are out in the open now... well at least, my things are. She still rarely tells me stuff, but whatever. I don't care. Supposedly, expressing things depresses her. So fine.

I'm going to put the start of this Seven Deadly Sins Survey down. Yes, I stole it from Ama's blog. I normally don't like surveys but this one has actual interesting questions. And I'll try to make my ansers entertaining and/or enlightening. No one reads it anyway, but I'm bored. I should sleep, but... meh.

Seven Deadly Sins

ANGER

1. Who did you last get angry with? My brother... but really angry? Like super I hate you angry? Why, who else but the dadio of course.

2. What is your weapon of choice? Well if I could have any weapon it'd be a chain whip. The concept just kicks ass. But I don't think those exist. Sooooo... bow and arrow. If I could use one at all. Muhaha, I suck.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? I hit them all the time! They don't listen otherwise.

4. How about of the same sex? Why not? Yeah. Girls are retarded and most of 'em are wussy. They're fun to hit. They squeak or whine.

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? The dad. Does anyone else actually loathe me like he does? I certainly doubt it.

6. What is your pet peeve? Which one? I have many... so many... today's pet peeve would be.... Girls who talk on their cell phones during class. Who the fuck are they talking to?? What could possibly be that important!

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? Usually I give in and let 'em go... unless the person's a constant annoyance. Then I will dislike them forever. Muhaha. I've just realized I'm in a slightly cynical mood.

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? Wash my face. I forget in the morning all the time. Bleh.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 2 PM. Would be later, but the dad is evil. He doesn't value sleep like I do.

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: hmmmmm.... oh, Kim! My art class buddy. I keep forgetting to e-mail her. Must do that! *note to self*

4. What is the last lame excuse you made? oh there are too many to count... I think I lied and said my alarm clock didn't go off when really I just forgot to switch it from "time" mode to "alarm" mode the night before. I've done lamer, but that's the most recent.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? Yep. When you're sick and can't move, you don't have much of a choice. It was the miracle blade one. hahaha, I bet all the stuff on their is made out of styrofoam. "It slices, it dices, it makes curly fries!"

6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? Actually, believe it or not, the other night. Mum makes me play harsh DDR now. I haven't gone to lift weights and ride the bike since the summer though. School is a bad thing for the physique.

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I don't have an alarm. Because I'd hit it a million times. Yes, I'm so bad, my mum has to come wake me up in the mornings. Booya, I win!

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Um... yuppie... beverage.... okay, not understanding here.

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? Vegetarians: Vegan or no? Mmmm, white! White meat is good with a touch of salt! Muah!

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? A quarter of a glass of champagne. I hate alchol. Tried beer, and wine, and I'll just say EW. How people chug that stuff, I'll never know.

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Hell no! Done a "program" because mum forced me too. Evil. It kinda felt good, but it's so embarrassing.

5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Yes. With my "disease" I gained 30 pounds last winter. I'm slowly starting to lose it. Though, according to my father, I've always had a weight problem. Fuck him, I really couldn't care less.

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Sweets. The tooth is hereditary. *gives Granpma K. the peace sign*

7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? haHA! Well, I'm proud to say, no, I don't think I have. Though some of the kids out there could feed a couple bears. Tis a bit sad.


LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Well, does this count people in locker rooms? Because that not such a big deal. Er... otherwise maybe one? I don't know, I was probably like 5.

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? Hopefully no one! But you never know... I do have a couple stalkers... k, whoa, EW, that disturbs even MY mind and I came up with it!

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Haha, oh please, who hasn't? And I hang around swimmers, they've got nice chests... and with those speedos, you kind of stare whether you want to or not. *snickers*

4. Have you "done it"? Nope! I'm special! And can resist my primal urges! *laughs* Like I've ever even had the chance.

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Well, the eyes are big. and hair, but if you mean like real physique-wise... I'd have to go with arms/shoulders. Hehehe, buff, but not bulging is always a plus. I don't think about it that much though.

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? A male prostitute? In Stillwater? Er, no, I can't say I have. (Thank Merlin!)

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? hehe, YES! Hahaha now everyone judge me! Ha! Tricked you! I had to because of my crazy polysystic syndrome so it doesn't count. hahaha, made you look!


GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own? Zippo! I can't handle finances worth a flying poopsicle.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Guilty pleasure store? *laughs* What, am I some mall-crawling moron? No, my "guilty pleasure" store would have to be Barnes & Noble or Best Buy. Videogames, music and books, huuzah! Guilty me, guilty me!


3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? College, and then random big stuff. Expensive art supplies, a bass clarinet. Because I can! I'm a nerd. Oh, possibly a car, because I've been needing one more often lately, but nothin special.


4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Mmmmm, rich, I think. Then I could buy cool stuff. Fame includes too much stress. And it only lasts for a bit. Richness could last for a long time. *shrugs*

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? ......... well depends on how much time I could get off. Because if I could get off a lot, I could use my megabucks to travel and have fun. If it's tedious and long, then no. I'll take some fun in my life, thanks.

6. Have you ever stolen anything? Never like shoplifted, stolen stuff from my brother etc, but nothing "illegal" to my knowledge.

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? A lot? uuuuh about...500 maybe? maybe a bit less. I lahka my music.

PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? I'd have to say a couple of my art pieces. The trumpet player piece and the surreal work. Yes, I'm not one of those artists who hates everything they do. I'm not going to display it unless I think it's decent.

2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Er... my art I think? THey'd be proud of my musical skills I think, except they know I never practice.

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Just.... do something I'm interested in. So many people have these shitty behind a desk, in a cubical jobs... that would just suck ass. I don't want to be one of them.

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Depends on what. If it's something I'm good at and if I think I had a chance at first then yeah, otherwise i'm usually alright with second.

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Heh, sadly... yes? I dunno, drawing/design contests. Didn't know I was better than everyone, but I knew I had a damn good chance.

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Just little stuff like homework. No big tests etc.

7. What did you do today that you're proud of? I er.... fit my 6-feet tall contra-bass clarinet into the back of Trisha's Saturn! w00t!

....more later, must sleep now. XB